somewhere inside my dreams
standing at the brims
the blue eyes of yours
is making me shed tears
memories of my love
is forever in glow
i can never rest
until i loose my lust
for u who drifted away
i will find you my dear
make you mine i swear
if your heart is true
then the paths will prove
i can come to you.
to be continued.... :)
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Somebody's shadow
Somebody's shadow
I found her on a social networking site, the beauty that she never admitted she was. Everything happened like there was a cause. Many similarities were found, many cause of attraction were found, days passed mailing changed to chatting
Chatted for long time, became friends like there was no-one else in this world, talks grew that even the smallest particles of life was familiar to each other.
Photos were shared and every details were shared, but the moment of realisation was yet to come; that friends of virtual friends had limits. At last telephone numbers were shared that chatting grew to phone calls
Someone whos noone becoming everyone i na few days is a thrilling expeeriance. I felt like i was the hero, i have never felt anything like this before, i never expected that something like this would ever happen to me. Bu tit was a very fine day, on whichi came to know that the feelings are different on the other side, that I was one in a 100 for her. My castle of cards trmbled down. I asked her, what do you really mean?
Is my feeling true, that I am 1 in a 100 or am I that special to u?
She hanged the call, deleted me from everywhere, walked away as-if no-one cared.
Still I can't understand her complicated mind. Is that a disease or a disasters after effect? Still, I don't know what,
But, I Lived my life happily ever after...
I found her on a social networking site, the beauty that she never admitted she was. Everything happened like there was a cause. Many similarities were found, many cause of attraction were found, days passed mailing changed to chatting
Chatted for long time, became friends like there was no-one else in this world, talks grew that even the smallest particles of life was familiar to each other.
Photos were shared and every details were shared, but the moment of realisation was yet to come; that friends of virtual friends had limits. At last telephone numbers were shared that chatting grew to phone calls
Someone whos noone becoming everyone i na few days is a thrilling expeeriance. I felt like i was the hero, i have never felt anything like this before, i never expected that something like this would ever happen to me. Bu tit was a very fine day, on whichi came to know that the feelings are different on the other side, that I was one in a 100 for her. My castle of cards trmbled down. I asked her, what do you really mean?
Is my feeling true, that I am 1 in a 100 or am I that special to u?
She hanged the call, deleted me from everywhere, walked away as-if no-one cared.
Still I can't understand her complicated mind. Is that a disease or a disasters after effect? Still, I don't know what,
But, I Lived my life happily ever after...
LAST Footsteps
LAST Footsteps
I was walking in-front, I believe everyone has took me as their leader. I don;t know how everything happened, the words were flowing from me, while they were asking many things, that they felt like I'm clearing their paths.
The experiences from the past has made the flow more strong and to the point that it strikes sharp. The stages I have passed, i believe i can understand almost all and there true feelings, 'cos i have felt them myself or has seen them around so close. My life the 'poor child' to what I am now was not made in a day. The endless sufferings, the days i thought would never end.
Looking in front i cannot see what is tomorrow for me or change the past. I'm living for what I am supposed to, and the last word i heard from him is that, my days are going to be over soon.
I am walking to the place where i can rest for the rest of my life, the place my complicated and confused thoughts collide to form a fountain of questions. I don't know how many of my followers know that today is my last day.
i believe my thoughts have to rest now. Today, the last wind will blow to me, I'll hear the last sound of my life, I'll have the last pain and happiness of my life. I am not afraid, but I am going to wait. I'll reach my destiny soon.
I was walking in-front, I believe everyone has took me as their leader. I don;t know how everything happened, the words were flowing from me, while they were asking many things, that they felt like I'm clearing their paths.
The experiences from the past has made the flow more strong and to the point that it strikes sharp. The stages I have passed, i believe i can understand almost all and there true feelings, 'cos i have felt them myself or has seen them around so close. My life the 'poor child' to what I am now was not made in a day. The endless sufferings, the days i thought would never end.
Looking in front i cannot see what is tomorrow for me or change the past. I'm living for what I am supposed to, and the last word i heard from him is that, my days are going to be over soon.
I am walking to the place where i can rest for the rest of my life, the place my complicated and confused thoughts collide to form a fountain of questions. I don't know how many of my followers know that today is my last day.
i believe my thoughts have to rest now. Today, the last wind will blow to me, I'll hear the last sound of my life, I'll have the last pain and happiness of my life. I am not afraid, but I am going to wait. I'll reach my destiny soon.
Monday, June 29, 2009
The place ഇന്സിടെ me
sometimes expectations keep us single..
expecting some1 to be some1..
and missing them for no reason,
from there on we compare, cant find some1 like the one we just missed..
thinking how unlucky we are..
but in no mood for a compromise..
devils games inside and gods play outside,
I'd rather be moved to hell more than heaven
for breaking the laws of god..
keeping my universe inside myself..
lost i am, lost as my dreams , lost as my thoughts, lost as my..
expecting some1 to be some1..
and missing them for no reason,
from there on we compare, cant find some1 like the one we just missed..
thinking how unlucky we are..
but in no mood for a compromise..
devils games inside and gods play outside,
I'd rather be moved to hell more than heaven
for breaking the laws of god..
keeping my universe inside myself..
lost i am, lost as my dreams , lost as my thoughts, lost as my..
ദി WInd
i am in serious prob...
prob is a wind...
which just embraced me, its fragrance drove me wild...
i thought like it'd never be over, 'n it'll flow forever...
but it came to an end,, breaking away my dreams...
nothing will ever be the same..
the wind never knew what changes it made, and i too don't want it to know..
but my silence will make it know, if it felt me when it was through me...
never a word about the wind will come out, I'm throwing my memories behind..
i was is and will be for myself..
but i know very much that I'm changed..............................
prob is a wind...
which just embraced me, its fragrance drove me wild...
i thought like it'd never be over, 'n it'll flow forever...
but it came to an end,, breaking away my dreams...
nothing will ever be the same..
the wind never knew what changes it made, and i too don't want it to know..
but my silence will make it know, if it felt me when it was through me...
never a word about the wind will come out, I'm throwing my memories behind..
i was is and will be for myself..
but i know very much that I'm changed..............................
Dance
Reading through my memories,
of your words i feel like,
I'm lost somewhere in between.
your words, they catch me..
Like an eagle catching a parrot,
Nowhere to move nowhere to run:
nothing to do.
Sometimes i feel like flying,
in your love. it does magic to me.
'coz i love you like you love me
i feel like i'm so happy.
i should dance..
i will..
Someday..
of your words i feel like,
I'm lost somewhere in between.
your words, they catch me..
Like an eagle catching a parrot,
Nowhere to move nowhere to run:
nothing to do.
Sometimes i feel like flying,
in your love. it does magic to me.
'coz i love you like you love me
i feel like i'm so happy.
i should dance..
i will..
Someday..
Lost Seconds
Lost Seconds
It was a beautiful evening in the park. Gazing at the children and the blossoms, I was thinking of my past, her eyes, those were the beautiful eyes I've ever seen.
One summer, i still remember as it is yesterday, I and my friend was cycling around the trees, suddenly a squirrel ran out of nowhere, i braked & i was down, my hand broke, that i couldn't move it. I saw some people running towards me to see what happened, at the back of the crowd i noticed a brown haired girl with her hypnotizing eyes. There was a house near-by and they took me to the place and gave me first aid. I think it was her home that she was there standing there helping her dad dressing me up.
I didn't go out for a week & when i came to park next week, there was renovations going on & i couldn't find the house there as it was not there, which i later knew was broken down for extending the park.
At the moment, i could recognize what i saw in her eyes, the feelings which she was hiding, the things that created the beauty. I don't know why i still remember those days. But surely, it was day of my past.
It was a beautiful evening in the park. Gazing at the children and the blossoms, I was thinking of my past, her eyes, those were the beautiful eyes I've ever seen.
One summer, i still remember as it is yesterday, I and my friend was cycling around the trees, suddenly a squirrel ran out of nowhere, i braked & i was down, my hand broke, that i couldn't move it. I saw some people running towards me to see what happened, at the back of the crowd i noticed a brown haired girl with her hypnotizing eyes. There was a house near-by and they took me to the place and gave me first aid. I think it was her home that she was there standing there helping her dad dressing me up.
I didn't go out for a week & when i came to park next week, there was renovations going on & i couldn't find the house there as it was not there, which i later knew was broken down for extending the park.
At the moment, i could recognize what i saw in her eyes, the feelings which she was hiding, the things that created the beauty. I don't know why i still remember those days. But surely, it was day of my past.
Moments
I was talking to an alien, i felt. I could feel the loss of my energy, like my words were trembling, I couldn't make some good sentences, which could have raised me up. I felt i was loosing myself up there.
I don't know what i was looking at as i couldn't look at the face, i was a bit lost. My feelings were rare kind, those i have never felt before, my dreams were flushed out that i couldn't imagine a thing. i tried to raise my voice, i had a pencil with me, i scribbled something on the newspaper in-front of me, which i couldn't read. I pushed it forward that it could be read.
It was at a point, that the colors were flushing into my eyes, i felt like being cold. i couldn't recognize who was in-front of me. The last thing i saw was, me lying down, i couldn't see anything, I closed my eyes..
I don't know what i was looking at as i couldn't look at the face, i was a bit lost. My feelings were rare kind, those i have never felt before, my dreams were flushed out that i couldn't imagine a thing. i tried to raise my voice, i had a pencil with me, i scribbled something on the newspaper in-front of me, which i couldn't read. I pushed it forward that it could be read.
It was at a point, that the colors were flushing into my eyes, i felt like being cold. i couldn't recognize who was in-front of me. The last thing i saw was, me lying down, i couldn't see anything, I closed my eyes..
The Phone Call
I was on the chair waiting for a call. The phone was near me. I don't know whose phone it is or or for whom i am waiting for. It was a clouded day outside, i felt like it was about rain. i was waiting
The wait continued for some hours, i got restless that the phone was not even ringing. I thought it was not the day for me. i decided to leave. I slowly made my hands to the table and stood up from my chair. The coffee was cold, oh i remember, i forgot to drink it, it was mine; i turned around and decided to walk away. i walked slowly through the empty chairs & other tables in the room. i reached the door and pulled it open, suddenly it happened, the phone rang....
The wait continued for some hours, i got restless that the phone was not even ringing. I thought it was not the day for me. i decided to leave. I slowly made my hands to the table and stood up from my chair. The coffee was cold, oh i remember, i forgot to drink it, it was mine; i turned around and decided to walk away. i walked slowly through the empty chairs & other tables in the room. i reached the door and pulled it open, suddenly it happened, the phone rang....
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