Let Her Fly

I don't know what i have to do
to keep myself inside me
I always loved someone
who could control me in the same
tell me how I could change
my desires
i loved to give my heart
and give my care thee
but all were a dream which can never come true..

let her fly in her own wings
I am no one to tie her up

but I am afraid that I'll lose her
the day she spreads her wings
let her fly away like the cute flower
in the wind... and let her touch the
clouds and wave me from there....

Into The Memmories

i always have my sunglasses on
not because I'm afraid of the sun
just 'coz my eyes are wet..
as the times with u, are still in my heart..

i dont miss them, but jus 'coz
i dont want that to happen again
those were beautiful but color less

thanks for teaching me day dreaming
and those many things, which,
i never knew existed..

my dreams have changed,
my happiness faded..
and my life has shattered
thanks for teaching the
value of my life..

now u 'll never know that
i ever existed
i'll fade soon..
into the memmories..

Rainy Days

those rainy days of my past
i wished that they last
but god decided something fast
that we have to blast.. :)


those rainy days of my past
still feels like it was yesterday
those walks in the cold, your words
making me wanna go back to the time
those beautiful nights
your dreams which kept me so warm
made me like I'm the best
but making me the worst
was the fear of getting lost
getting lost .. from you!!!
'coz i am that into you..

My friend from NY

I met a girl from the new york city a few years back. She had came here as a part of her research work, for her university, Some bio things. We met at a lab, where i went with one of my friends for some of his purposes. We met at the result unit, We started on something, later floated on to many other things, we talked about places which mostly included green colors to the visuals. AS i was a good traveler, i could refer some good places, which would be good for her work. She got my number that she could call me anytime she needs help. I said bye, and thus we became hi - bye friends.But what went through my mind was different. In all the English movies, it was just dating & 1 day relations. Nothing else mattered, Nobody cared anything. So, i believed that, in U.S, things were like that. A place of no serious relations.
We later started chatting, we became better friends, i was thinking like i too will get a chance. Everything was running to the same point, that made me think, i too will get a chance. But i decided not to make a move, I waited.
One day evening she called me, she was in a hurry she told me that, she was about to leave to new york in an hour. I asked why, i got no answer. i felt really bad, but i did not ask anymore questions and waved her a happy journey
I could never understand why she left, I believed it was some urgent call from her university that made her do that.. until the day i saw her online again.
i asked what happened, she never gave an answer but switched the topic, but later said it was a personnel problem.
I asked no more questions on it as i felt, it wont be that good. I asked her to switch on the cam and mic. She first said no, but later she did, i could see her pale face, her eyes had lost that shining, she looked so sad. She just looked like she was crying for days.
I wanted to ask why but as she was not in a good shape to ask, so, I skipped the question. I knew she had a boy friend there, I asked about him. She said he was good, but at the same moment i saw tears burst out of her eyes, making a river on her face.
I waited there, until she stopped crying, i felt so sad. She said about her reason for the rush back, it was 'cos her boy friend met with an accident and now too he is in bed rest. she is there now, working and looking after him. i asked her to take good care of him and herself very well, and also that i'd pray for them.
i was actually on a shock !!!
i could never accept such a thing, real love in a place that in believed never existed. it took me days to understand the difference between the movies and the real life there
It was the movies which made me think like that, now i feel sorry for myself, i never have imagined a white girl crying broken hearted i for her love. Anyway i'm really confused on what is true and what is not.
But My feeling for my friend is now respect.
and it will be forever...

gloomy Wednesday

her walks were like moonlight flowing
her touch like the softness of a feather
her eyes were like diamond in the sun
her smell like the life's satisfaction
i have dreams of holding her
like the rain drops in my arms
the most beautiful drops I've ever felt
I have those many days,
which i have waited for you
just to see you walk away
i now have visions even when
I'm staring at the empty walls
its all because of you
i don't know if i can get
any close to you
than a stranger in the street
But i hold me back, always
i am sad that i decided
my targets are so important
it was a gloomy Wednesday, on which
i had the thoughts that changed me
In my memories, will always be there
you & this day..the golden beauty and the
gloomy Wednesday

My Love for you

I hate my dreams, My dreams of you
I had many sleepless nights and
I had many frozen moments
Everywhere I look I see you
I don't know what has happened to me,
As the sun goes down, the hell comes to me
I am in pain, the way no-one has ever felt
wounds unseen but the bleeding is felt..
I still think of you every second
but i don't want you in my life
I want to do something which
I have never done for so long
I want to cry...
I want to cry my pain out
Feelings are expressionless
expressions don't do things well
I wanna loose my pain,
I wanna be reborn, With all my memories lost
because, I can't love you anymore..

essay

I wrote the date on the left corner of the paper, 21-08-2046. I am about to write the n essay on the reason for the unavailability of salt-less water to the world, My daughter never believed me, about my past, the tie when I and my Bros were taking water directly from the river, watching the filter plants and the packaged water, she was believed it was like that.
Those days have passed, there are only factories and purifier plants everywhere. But my problem now is different, what would i write for her. The reasons, If I'm going genuine, I'll have to point at many, I don't like criticizing anyone for this 'coz everybody, known or un-known was a part of this.
I can't, Let some one else do this for her!!!